I’m lost

The rest of the world is moving and i’m standing right in the middle of it all.

I watch as people speak and move past me, but I can’t seem to catch up to them. I can’t seem to open my mouth fast enough to actually catch them in the glimpse. I close my eyes and one second later, they’re gone. I try opening my mouth, but, the minute i do so I can’t make out the picture of what’s going on around me.

I want it to stop. I am trying to make it stop, but I can’t help but think of the consequences of me speaking up. What if one listens and offers to walk at my pace? Let along, he might even offer to stand there with me, so I don’t feel alone. What then? I am not alone but i remain standing in the same place? What then? I am not alone but we stay moving mediocre?

Maybe I should just wait. Maybe i will catch up tomorrow. I cannot bare to stand this much longer. I cannot let anyone keep me waiting much longer.

After all, if i do move tomorrow, no one ever offered me to stay longer; and if i do move tomorrow, it was my time.

My time, my strength, i have healed.



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